more boys is better than more girls in a class.no more worry about.studies or friends, i choose studies.somehow, regretted to choose that.however in another way, will also regret.no matter what i chosen, would still regret.what i can do is just envious people,have good relationship with friends.one week pass, still two.maybe in future will better.but right now, i don't know.wonder/waiting for miracle come.
should 主动 or 被动?seem transparent to them.if don't even know which mean,自己把热脸贴在别人的冷屁股.only one easily forgotten.although look okay,actually 受到一点打击.too bad, must get used.because you can't do it.hate high profile andattention seek people.act capable and strong.okay, made a final decision.not going to do it,unless you asked about it.
life isn't bad as i think.although not lucky but still better than others.still lots of accompanies with me.shouldn't ask more, cherish what i had.why greed for everything,worry for things that can't see.would not make it better,but let me feel down.thank for your counseling.you gave me guide when i need help.and, I LOVE YOU! =) you are only one that saw how passionate, love and hyper on THEM.thank for bear with it even though you don't like.so, I LOVE YOU! =D
what should i do, what if i failed.nothing gonna help me anymore.wasted much time and energy.in the end just a dream.angry and feel killing myself.what happen to my brain.although kept told not to think,but mind can't stop it.words can't help, as if it helps.if really happen in this way,i might end it myself.after a long period thinking,i know will not, not fear.don't want to stay in any second.not to be loner, just want to end.but don't know what will happen after.no one knows it, no one tells it.because it is impossible to say.strong sense of failure, unpredictable.can she help me, i don't know.my future and fate on them.
it seem fake that can't stand.it doesn't what i think.am i expecting too much? or mindset too narrow?thought bit different from others,but not at all.as normal as others.no privilege and little credits.i put my heart on it,you seem appreciate it,i can't sense it deep in it.it look so surface.it's not i wanted from you.i put my sincere in you,you give wide gap between us.gap we forever can't close.told me this ways but it fact,you act another ways.everyone is all the same.not only you alone.put much time and effort,surface thanks are given.it seem you deserve it,not more than others.don ever think for more.forever will not get it.look like dumb and idiot,giving myself high hope,and expect more more more.act everything turn out good.but don't even give a damn of it.so what, it can't fill up my heart.i'm not the best but just good.no matter how long you try,you still can't get through it.
if you have priority.make a fuss, just go ahead.don't understand what i said,forget it, pretend never heard.don't need extra comment.sorry, feel that not funny at all.don't need appreciation.different world of people,hence don't understand.shut up make me shut,alright, i just shut it.prevent from irritation.think leaving can solve,you're not, i don't appreciate.yea, childish, childish comment.so what, mine characteristic.not grow up enough like you.whatever i said, stupid and crap.just extra and extra and extra.
