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more boys is better than more girls in a class.
no more worry about.
studies or friends, i choose studies.
somehow, regretted to choose that.
however in another way, will also regret.
no matter what i chosen, would still regret.
what i can do is just envious people,
have good relationship with friends.
one week pass, still two.
maybe in future will better.
but right now, i don't know.
wonder/waiting for miracle come.

wonder

should 主动 or 被动?
seem transparent to them.
if don't even know which mean,
自己把热脸贴在别人的冷屁股.
only one easily forgotten.
although look okay,
actually 受到一点打击.
too bad, must get used.
because you can't do it.
hate high profile and
attention seek people.
act capable and strong.
okay, made a final decision.
not going to do it,
unless you asked about it.

lots of appreciate

life isn't bad as i think.
although not lucky but still better than others.
still lots of accompanies with me.
shouldn't ask more, cherish what i had.
why greed for everything,
worry for things that can't see.
would not make it better,
but let me feel down.
thank for your counseling.
you gave me guide when i need help.
and, I LOVE YOU! =)
you are only one that
saw how passionate, love and hyper on THEM.
thank for bear with it even though you don't like.
so, I LOVE YOU! =D

will not come true.

what should i do, what if i failed.
nothing gonna help me anymore.
wasted much time and energy.
in the end just a dream.
angry and feel killing myself.
what happen to my brain.
although kept told not to think,
but mind can't stop it.
words can't help, as if it helps.
if really happen in this way,
i might end it myself.
after a long period thinking,
i know will not, not fear.
don't want to stay in any second.
not to be loner, just want to end.
but don't know what will happen after.
no one knows it, no one tells it.
because it is impossible to say.
strong sense of failure, unpredictable.
can she help me, i don't know.
my future and fate on them.