it seem fake that can't stand. it doesn't what i think. am i expecting too much? or mindset too narrow? thought bit different from others, but not at all. as normal as others. no privilege and little credits. i put my heart on it, you seem appreciate it, i can't sense it deep in it. it look so surface. it's not i wanted from you. i put my sincere in you, you give wide gap between us. gap we forever can't close. told me this ways but it fact, you act another ways. everyone is all the same. not only you alone. put much time and effort, surface thanks are given. it seem you deserve it, not more than others. don ever think for more. forever will not get it. look like dumb and idiot, giving myself high hope, and expect more more more. act everything turn out good. but don't even give a damn of it. so what, it can't fill up my heart. i'm not the best but just good. no matter how long you try, you still can't get through it.
if you have priority. make a fuss, just go ahead. don't understand what i said, forget it, pretend never heard. don't need extra comment. sorry, feel that not funny at all. don't need appreciation. different world of people, hence don't understand. shut up make me shut, alright, i just shut it. prevent from irritation. think leaving can solve, you're not, i don't appreciate. yea, childish, childish comment. so what, mine characteristic. not grow up enough like you. whatever i said, stupid and crap. just extra and extra and extra.
for the sake of taiwan trip. jia you jia you. only one and half month. believe yourself can make it. although will be hard, but just bear with it. think the good point but not bad. jan and feb will pass soon. daijoubu, daijoubu, daijoubu.
i got to watch NHK channel this year. Arashi first time went to ＮＨＫ紅白歌合戦. i love Arashi cheer Tokio up. i love Arashi's performance at ＮＨＫ紅白歌合戦. i love Arashi changed their clothes on stage, in one second without notice.
i watched Johnny's Countdown 2009-2010 Live. i love Arashi be the host. i love Arashi sing 好きやねん、大阪。 i love Kanjani 8 cuteness. i love 国分太一 cuteness too.
yesterday went to iluma watch 'Alvin and the Chipmunks 2' with gabrielle, wan ping, vivian, georgina and hui hui. and huifang join us and eat steamboat after that. took lots of random 10 shot pics. thanks for the birthday present from hui hui, vivian, wan ping and gabrielle. i love it because is ARASHI! and smiley pouch from georgina. i love it too~
i started to hate christmas and new year. it feel sad and lonely every year.
everyone is leaving me. my heart feel hurt but not pain. i wish you were there but you not. i telling myself it was impossible. but it can't stop me thinking of it. i know it was false hope. but i really hope it will turn real.
sometimes really hope to have a accident. everything will be gone. no more me thinking. no more worries and sadness. no more wasting money and time. i not happy, putting an act infront everyone. can you understand? no, not even one. is the world good until you fear of leaving. i can't feel anything that make me stay. i am waiting to left the place. meanigless life and nothing. living for the sake of living.
all is lie. i not going believe anymore. all is crap. only know how to say nice word in front. what you say doesnt what mean what you think/feel. stupid to believe you. you are just perfunctory me. whatever, your word are not worth to trust.
last day of working in NTUC. worked for 7 months. the longest period of time i ever work. previously never been work for more than 1 month.
to some nice auntie, thank for teaching and guiding me. thank for treat me as your daughter. thank for treat me eat breads and etc.
auntie Hong Huay, auntie Sandy and auntie Annie gave me farewell gift. so nice and sweet. i love them yea.
gift from auntie Annie. this bear look like my style. surprised when i saw this bear pencil case. it was amazing.
gift from auntie Hong Huay. she bluff say wanted to buy for her daughter.
gift from auntie Hong Huay too. she knew i love this christmas shape of ferrero collection. cool~
gift from auntie Sandy. saw this clothes displayed at the BHG roadshow at main hall after work. just anyhow said love this clothes and didnt expect she will bought it. i love this clothes.
i don't like my new hello kitty phone. it was useless phone. i need to type my message letter by letter. when i write 'f' its come out another word. it took me a long time type finish message. the phone only accept mp3 format song. however mostly my song are in wma format. i need to re-download the song in mp3 format. i still prefer my old LG phone. only good point is model shape is hello kitty.
~*~ マイガール PV ~*~ Funny and Cute PV. Funny is because Their mother's face = Their face combined together. They act as 5 brothers in the PV. Nice and Sweet Song. <-- RELEASE ON 11/11/2009 -->
it's truth it's truth. why things will end up like this. if i know the result will turn up like this, probably is because i am jealous of you. but i don't think you will ever know. i regret and regret. all the happiness between us are gone. you probably don't know i am talking to you. hope you can come talk to me but you didnt. i don't have the courage to talk to you again. you might think we have nothing to talk anymore. but i have alot of things to tell you. and the most important thing is, i missed you and i'm sorry for ignored you in the fist place.
